I am sad
I feel that the future is hopeless and that things cannot improve
I am bored and dissatisfied with everything
I am a complete failure as a person
I am guilty, I am being punished
I would like to kill myself
I used to be able to cry but now I am beyond tears
I have lost interest in other people
I can't make decisions
I can't eat
I can't sleep
I can't think
I cannot overcome my loneliness, my fear, my disgust
I am fat
I cannot write
I cannot love
My brother is dying, my lover is dying, I am killing them both
I am charging towards my death
I am terrified of medication
I cannot make love
I cannot fuck
I cannot be alone
I cannot be with others
My hips are too big
I dislike my genitals
At 4.48
when depression visits
I shall hang myself
to the sound of my lover's breathing
I do not want to die
I have become so depressed by the fact of my mortality that I have
decided to commit suicide
I do not want to live
I am jealous of my sleeping lover and cover his induced
unconsciousness
When he wakes he will envy my sleepless night of thought and
speech unslurred by medication
I have resigned myself to death this year
Some will call this self-indulgence
(they are lucky not to know its truth)
Some will know the simple fact of pain
This is becoming my normality
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Questo blog non essendo aggiornato periodicamente, non può pertanto considerarsi prodotto editoriale ai sensi della legge n.62 del 07/08/2001. Immagini, testi, audio, video inseriti sono pubblicati senza alcun fine di lucro. Qualora la loro pubblicazione violasse specifici diritti di autore, si prega di comunicarmelo per la relativa pronta rimozione. GRAZIE!
Melanconia, dal greco melania (nera) e cholè (bile).Figlia prediletta di Saturno, la Melanconia ermetica è la fase preliminare e necessaria di ogni processo creativo. La rivalutazione conoscitiva di questo temperamento risale ad Aristotele che unifica la concezione medica ippocraticogalenica con il concetto socratico platonico di furore (daimon).
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